Friday of the third week, one more day

Not sure what to think today. Got an email this morning that wasn’t really positive, scarred me actually. Made me do some serious thinking. She has been told to run, as fast as she can. I know she is confused, the talk, the emails have been so healing, so revealing. I have been told that I have never seemed so relaxed, so calm. We discussed the email some, we have decided that it needs to slow down, we need to stop running at warp speed. We can’t reconcile 30 years of pain in 3 weeks. Weekends are already taboo, time to let the week sink in, time for ourselves, time to be with family and spouses. There will be opportunity enough.

I haven’t heard from our son or his wife since yesterday. I sent a long email last night, but have had no response. I’m concerned there, too. I’m not sure if there is something wrong or not. I don’t want to intrude until I am more sure of myself and whatever relationship that would like to have with me. Maybe after a while it will be easier for us all.

I hope the weekend is good to us all. That we find some satisfaction in whatever we do. I hope all is well with everyone.

It’s late, I have some paperwork to finish and I think I will try to get it done before bed. I’m also 200+ pages behind in my reading. I need to catch up. Maybe I will get some of that done this weekend.

Good night.