October 1, 2005, A day to remember

Why does this day have relevance? This is the day that a silence ended. She called! I have spent a great amount of time over the past 30 years looking, thinking, wondering "what if". She ws timid and apprehensive on the phone, I could hear it in her voice. She thought that I had abandoned her so many years before, she didn't know that I have been looking, that I really did care. She was worried that I wouldn't want to talk to her. She asked me not to hang up on her, twice. We talked, I know it was about an hour, but it couldn't make up for 28 years.

I last saw her in the spring of '77. I was on my way to Arizona for my first duty assignment after my advanced training in the army. I had joined in January 1976.

I left school in the spring of '75. She stayed. We lost contact for a while. I found out in the fall of '75 that she was pregnant. I found out when I received a release form from the adoption people. I wasn't sure what to do. I did what I thought she wanted, based on the letter I received with the form. I should have tried to talk to her. I now know better. We just didn't know how to talk I guess. We were young and didn't know.

A son was born late in 75. I saw her again on the trip to Arizona, but again, we didn't talk about our past. We should have. She was in love again, we had been apart for 2 years. I don't know why we didn't talk. I lost contact with her after that. Until October 1, 2005.